So i know I'm talking to myself, but that's fine.. I like to do that sometimes. I'm sort of bothered though . There's this dude i met about a month ago, physically not my ideal guy, he's short (well I'm tall), he's a different tribe and he worships in a different aspect of my religion. Guess you now have an idea of my ideal man, amongst other features.. Beyond these, he's been a great guy, listening to me, absorbing all my drama, being there for me (emotionally and otherwise) bla bla bla..
He's actually an interesting guy and for some reason, he's convinced himself that he wants to spend the rest of his life with me.. Don't get me wrong, I'm not anti-love, but who falls in love so fast. I used to be that way, but I've learned so much from previous mishaps. I've learned to hold back for a period so people unavoidably show their true colors.
Anyhoo.. I can't really define how I feel about this development especially because it's coming at a time when I feel my heart is unavailable. I love to love and I dream of having a fantastic family some day soon but im scared of letting emotions and anxiety becloud my judgement.
I'm scared of it all becoming too real..
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